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Hello! I'm Antares, and welcome to my Carrd! Click the buttons below to get to know me better.This Carrd is currently a work in progress, and some things are still to be added. This may be updated every once in a while, so please check back whenever you wish!If you're looking for my commerce information Carrd, check here!-
IDENTITY
GENDER + SEXUALITYI identify as Bisexual Biromantic sexuality-wise; I recently have been reconsidering my sexuality, but I'm pretty comfortable where I am right now.As for gender, I identify as a demigirl, who uses she/they/fae pronouns. She/her is preferred for me (hence why it is listed first) but any of these can be used, or you can use them interchangeably, I don't mind. I was born female, and still identify on a feminine scale, so I don't really care too much if I'm referred to as a female (ON IDENTIFICATION STUFF; please don't call me a 'female' lmao that weirds me out)I also use a couple of other neopronouns; xe/vi/star specifically, but PLEASE ASK before using these - I'd much rather know who you were before you used these for me.ALTERHUMANITYOtherkin, otherhearted, voidpunkKINTYPES: Dragon, Drake, Wyvern, Sea Serpent (only shift into this under certain circumstances though)HEARTTYPES: Deer, Lynx, Snake, Golden Eagle, domesticated felinesI'm also a furry/scalie! Currently working on one fursuit head for a sona of mine :DAESTHETICSI change aesthetics a LOT because my sense of self is kinda,,, fluid ig? So this likely will change up a lot.Alternative (goth), spacecore, dreamcore, whatever tf the rollercoaster aesthetic is (if there even is one)NAMES AND ALIASESI go by Antares mainly, as it is the name of my truesona. However, I also go by Rain, Winder, Inertia or Oblivion/Bliv if Antares doesn't suit your fancy.You can also call me Toxin, Bayonet, Bayonetta, Glitz or Glitzy; I'd rather I knew who you were beforehand however.While those names are my main set of aliases, I actually don't mind what you call me as long as it's appropriate, in fact, I'm quite open to fun nicknames; I find them silly! You may also call me the names of any of my sonas, however, they are meaningful to me so I don't mind using their names~NEURODIVERGENCELess of an identity per se, but I do in fact have FORMALLY DIAGNOSED Autism Spectrum Disorder (level 1; technically Asperger's but I don't like that term so don't call me it) - thus it's best to be patient with me whilst in discussions! Please read my BYI to see the extent of my behaviours (particularly the eccentric ones) because I'm not too willing to explain them outside of that - I don't mean to hurt anyone, though.I'm looking to get diagnosed with:
- Attention-Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD with the H)
- A personality disorder which will not be named (even after diagnosis, I will talk about it minimally due to discomfort; only in disclaimers due to how it makes me act. Please do not ask for details (especially since I'm not formally diagnosed) unless you're a close friend.)
- An anxiety disorder (possibly GAD? Not too sure though)
- A bunch of other stuffHoping to get these diagnosed soon, it's just tough due to the waiting lists (I'm expected to wait about 2 years to even be assessed; though there are hopes for me to be assessed quicker I don't have much faith in the system)DO NOT ACCUSE ME OF FAKING ANYTHING; I will not state I have something unless I'm very sure I have it or have a formal diagnosis. If you accuse me of faking, you will be IP blocked (or regular blocked if it's not on TH)
INTERESTS
I do, in fact, have quite a wide variety of interests! This section may be updated as I discover new content.CURRENT HYPERFIXATIONS
- Gregory Horror Show
- Gravity Falls
- Steven UniverseSHOWS
- Gregory Horror Show
- Don't Hug Me I'm Scared
- Hazbin Hotel (I DO NOT SUPPORT THE BAD STUFF)
- Helluva Boss (same as above)
- A Series of Unfortunate Events
- Centaurworld
- Kipo and the Age of Wonderbeasts
- Robot and Monster
- Robocar Poli
- Satellite City
- The Dragon Prince
- Pokemon
- The Simpsons
- Adventure Time
- Gravity Falls
- Steven UniverseMOVIES
- The Final Destination series
- The Hunger Games series
- School of Rock
- Inside Out (1 + 2)
- Cars + PlanesBOOKS
- Wings of Fire
- The August Few
- The Fallen Gods Trilogy (Godkiller, Sunbringer, 3rd book not revealed yet)
- A Series of Unfortunate Events
- The Mysterious Case of the Alperton Angels
- Age of FireGAMES
- Gregory Horror Show: Soul Collector (as well as other GHS franchise games)
- Spooky's Jumpscare Mansion
- Cult of the Lamb
- The Cruel King and the Great Hero
- Spore
- Danganronpa
- The Sims
- Shelter 2
- Planet Coaster
- Billie Bust Up
- Pokemon
- Purrfect Apawcalypse
- Error: Save File Is AbandonedANIME
- Gregory Horror Show
- Yona of the Dawn
- Kamisama Kiss
- The Apothecary Diaries
- Pokemon
- Toilet-Bound Hanako-Kun
- DanganronpaANALOGUE HORROR
- The Smile Tapes
- Liminal Land
- Angel HareMUSICCURRENT FAVOURITE ARTISTS:
- Chonny Jash
- Will Wood
- Miracle Musical
- ParamoreALL:
- AJR
- Owl City
- Taylor Swift
- Bill Wurtz
- Jack Stauber
- Bastille
- Panic! At the Disco
- Waterparks
- Yungblud
- Sodikken
- The Smiths
- Alec Benjamin
- Mother Mother
- Ghost and Pals
- Tally Hall
- Melanie Martinez (not too sure if the allegations are true or not, just know that I don't support her if they are. If they're proven to be false, I'll remove this note.)
- Static-P
- Will Stetson
- Chonny Jash
- Cavetown
- Conan Gray
- The Living Tombstone
- Penelope Scott
- Yaelokre
- Miracle Musical
- Will Wood
- LAPFOX TRAX/Halley LabsMUSICALS
- Jesus Christ Superstar
- School of Rock
- HamiltonYOUTUBERS
- MrBallen
- Idksterling
- Matt Rose
- SabersparkWEBCOMICS
- Dark WaterMISCELLANEOUS
- Rollercoasters
- Astrophysics (space stuff, basically)
- Dragons, reptiles, avians
- Science (physics, biology, chemistry, astronomy)
- Archery
- Helicopters, Planes, other flying vehicles (but especially Helicopters)
- Power stations (especially nuclear ones)
- Worldbuilding
- Writing
- Reading
- Stargazing
- Drawing
- Roleplaying
- Religious themes, especially angels (I am not religious myself, but I do enjoy the lore/stories of them)
- Bones/Skulls
- Gore and blood (I do not condone any violent actions irl, I just enjoy them in media)
- Nuclear radiation
- Alternative aesthetics
SOCIALS
I have a wide variety of social media! Below is all of them listed. This will be updated if I sign up for anything new.PLEASE NOTE that I am much more active on certain sites - the ones listed nearer the top are considered the more 'important' sites and the ones I am the most active on (excluding Pronouns.page). Those marked with 'not very active' are the socials least checked and/or updated.PRONOUNS.PAGE: RadiantzRain
TOYHOUSE: WINDERMERE
ARTFIGHT: RadiantzRain
CHARACTERHUB: RadiantzRain
UNVALE: RadiantzRain
FLIGHT RISING: Flufferb
PIXEL CAT'S END: RadiantzRain
PIXILART: TOXICTARRIE
DRAGCAVE: Flufferb
FANDOM: Flufferb
SPOTIFY: Antares
SKETCHERS UNITED: RadiantzRain
WATTPAD: TOXICTARRIE
AO3: RadiantzRain
SIDE7: RadiantzRain
QUOTEV: Serenitystar
NOTEBOOK.AI: RadiantzRadio (NOT VERY ACTIVE)
INSTAGRAM: Toxictarrie (NOT VERY ACTIVE)
REFSHEET: RadiantzRain (NOT VERY ACTIVE)
DEVIANTART: Flufferb (NOT VERY ACTIVE)
SCRATCH: Flufferb (NOT VERY ACTIVE)
COMFORTS
I have a lot of comfort characters! While a few of them may be problematic, I do not condone their actions, though I enjoy them regardless. Please do not attack me over any of my comfort characters, they mean quite a lot to me.FEATURED
These are my current brainrot characters (aka I am totally normal over them)
- Droney (Robocar Poli)
- Bill Cipher (Gravity Falls)
- Peridot (Steven Universe)
- Lapis Lazuli (Steven Universe)ALL COMFORTS
- Judgement Boy Gold (Gregory Horror Show)
- Judgement Boy (Gregory Horror Show)
- Adam (Hazbin Hotel)
- Angel Dog (Gregory Horror Show)
- Lamp (DHMIS)
- Spooky (SJSM)
- Specimen 8 (SJSM)
- Specimen 9 (SJSM)
- Octavia (Helluva Boss)
- Sir Pentious (Hazbin Hotel)
- Nowhere King (Centaurworld)
- Scarlemagne (Kipo)
- Shrignold (DHMIS)
- Winter (Wings of Fire)
- Snowfall (Wings of Fire)
- Blue (Wings of Fire)
- Helly (Robocar Poli)
- Spitfire (Robot and Monster)
- Gart (Robot and Monster)
- Lucifer (Hazbin Hotel)
- Skediceth (Fallen Gods)
- Droney (Robocar Poli)
- Barnaby (Billie Bust Up)
- Chameleon (Kung Fu Panda)
- Neko Zombie (Gregory Horror Show)
- Lady Rainicorn (Adventure Time)
- Angel (Purrfect Apawcalypse)
- Coco (Purrfect Apawcalypse)
- Anxiety (Inside Out)
- Bill Cipher (Gravity Falls)
- Peridot (Steven Universe)
- Lapis Lazuli (Steven Universe)
- Amethyst (Steven Universe)
STORIES
As a hobbyist writer, I have a lot of stories, with characters to match! This page entails all of the worlds I have created and also features links for where you can read and learn more about the lore.FIXIANORMy main universe, Fixianor is set to be a franchise; detailing the many different stories which unfold in this dangerous magical universe. It is considered as a dark high fantasy series set within a world full of strange, exotic creatures. It has been around since 2019.There is nowhere you can read this yet, as it is still in progress! I plan on making it a properly published book someday, and I have much to learn before I make this journey.Learn more about Fixianor!JOVIAExisting since 2020, Jovia is one of my main worlds, but more of a secondary one compared to the likes of Fixianor. Set on the estranged planet of Jovia, it follows the territorial creatures known as the Jovians, who all stick to their own clans and follow their leaders with undying passion. The clans are at odds with one another, and their anger may soon be the death of them someday.No links to read this yet, as it is still not published!Learn more about Jovia!THE GAME OF LIFEA story set within the world of Wings of Fire, The Game of Life follows the journeys of Kagayaku, a mortal IceWing/SandWing turned demigoddess, in her quest to eradicate evil and suffering from the world. With help from her Deity girlfriend, spirit ancestor and best friend, she goes on journeys that no other would dare tread, in hopes of spreading her message.Learn more about TGoL!The series on AO3The series on WattpadDESIREA sci-fi series set on the planet of Atune, a secret society of Asrets has been under investigation by the royal family, and a spy, though not a verified one, is sent into their rankings in order to find out just what they're up to behind the scenes. But this journey is dangerous, and the spy, Osiris, must report back to the King and keep his guard up before he gets caught.No links to read this yet, as it is still in progress.ALL OF DESIRE'S INFORMATION + THE STORY ITSELFNO ANGELSA dark fantasy series following the perspective of Minette, it entails her home village of Goldcrest being pulled into a crisis, an outbreak of possessive spores which drive innocent lives insane. Minette, being immune to the spores, suffers through the crisis, whilst avoiding those who had lost their mind, she is starting to believe she will die anyways despite her immunity.It is not published yet, so there are no links to read.Learn more about No Angels!
SONAS
I'll work on this page later - soon you'll be able to read biographies on my OCs!The above drawing is made by my friend DrDewgong on Toyhouse - the character is my main fursona Antares!
BEFORE YOU INTERACT
This is my BYI/BYF list! Please read everything despite the length - it's very important, especially if you're planning to associate yourself with me long-term. I don't exactly want to explain my behaviours to others outside of this list.I will also put my DNI onto here, but there isn't much on there at all. Please see my commerce carrd (linked on home page) for my blacklist!BYI- I'm very impulsive verbally and this is something I'm very bad for. I often don't read messages fully and can be quite quick to respond, so I tend to overlook things. Please don't judge me over this and gently correct me if I miss anything. I come off as entitled, condescending and distant a lot when I try not to be so please don't take this to heart. I do in fact have ADHD!! Please do not tell me to just 'pay attention' because I'm not medicated for it yet and I really struggle at times so this doesn't exactly help.- I have bad trust issues and paranoia; do not try getting close to me if I'm not familiar with you, nor should you defy any of my boundaries. I am very unforgiving and make negative associations to a lot of things so I may come off as aggressive (though this isn't intentional to an extent) if you're associated with something I see in a negative light.- I am uncomfortable with mentions of Homestuck, Primagens/Protogens, rollercoaster/theme park incidents and deer hunting. The last two I can manage in fiction, but please keep discussing real-life situations to a minimum.- Tone tags, abbreviations, keysmashes, etc, are all appreciated when conversing with me because I tend to take blunt tones as attacks - this isn't a you problem though, mainly me. I will always use these with you and I'd appreciate it if you didn't ask me to stop unless it's dire.- I am quite mentally challenged and internalise a LOT of my emotions - I may disappear from conversations for long amounts of time due to this; that and I also have a low social battery in general. Please do not force me to discuss my emotions with you because this is something I really dislike to tell others- I like to ramble! I'm a rather hyperactive poster so I tend to go overboard with some things sometimes - I also swear and complain quite a lot so please tell me if you don't want me to do this!- Please ask before venting to me, I cannot stress this enough. Very heavy personal vents make me uncomfortable and can even trigger my paranoia - not to mention I'm really not the best person to seek consolation from. I've had a bad experience with this kind of thing. You can vent ONLY if I give explicit permission to do so (and please avoid talking about really heavy topics unless you're a close friend of mine and I say you can talk about it - I like to help so oftentimes I will say yes, I just need to know you're about to do it)- Please let me know of your triggers early on if you're planning to associate yourself with me. I've had a bad experience with this as well and I don't want this happening again- I'd rather keep most relations as mutuals unless I decide to take things further.- As an ND person, I do not like terms such as 'neurospicy', 'acoustic' or 'restarted' (the last two being used as replacements for other words, I don't mind those words in general) - do not use them around me. I can handle 'tism' to an extent but do not push it - I'd rather you didn't make this joke unless I do first. The Autism (and ADHD) creatures make me kinda uncomfortable because I don't like my mental health being made out as 'cute' or 'quirky' - it's something I've struggled with my entire life.- People hating on one of my comfort franchises/characters will likely be blocked; whenever I label a character/franchise as a 'comfort' it means I sympathise with them very strongly and I do not appreciate hate on them at all (I know half of my comfort characters are villains; do I care? No. I ofc don't condone anything bad that my comfort characters do or whatever, I just think villains are cool.)- My characters have problematic themes in their stories and actions, I do not condone, romanticise, or glorify any of this. Please refrain from consuming my content if you are sensitive to anything stated on my warnings, as such matter will be explained in detail when it arises. All characters with sensitive content will be separately tagged.- I hold grudges for a long time, sorry if I come off as distrusting or mean in any way. If we have had a negative interaction in the past, I will likely not want to associate with you (unless I've forgotten about you, but I likely won't). I do not want to associate with those who have blocked me (or vice versa) due to this.- FRIENDS/MUTUALS OF MY EX-FRIEND ARE ON VERY VERY THIN ICE. I'm not exaggerating this - you're associating with a bad person. They made me very uncomfortable so I do not want to be associated with them or even have their name mentioned around me; I spiral whenever I see it.- I'm very forgetful, please do not hesitate to remind me of anything - especially owed art or RP responses. I lose motivation very easily as well so large art pieces will likely take a very long time to complete - do not pressure me to respond or finish anything because it will put me off.- Also, please don't make any height jokes around me unless I make one first! I'm very dysphoric about my height in particular and I don't particularly appreciate comments about it or whatever. I do make these jokes frequently with my ocs, just be careful and don't overdo it.- PLEASE DO NOT MAKE ANY JOKING THREATS ABOUT HURTING ME; joke or not I tend to take these as actual threats and can trigger bad emotions within me. Please do not do this unless I make one of these jokes first.- PLEASE DO NOT INFANTILISE ME IN ANY WAY ISTG I HATE THIS SO FUCKING MUCH; this includes calling me stuff like a 'child' or using pet names for me. I get this enough as a ND person, please stop.- I edit my messages a lot after posting them because I am an idiot and often think of things to say after posting - that and I'm super impulsive with texting overall so I may have gotten paranoid and changed some stuff. Please don't mind this! Oftentimes if you see I've edited a message it's usually because I changed my wording or smth hh- Some things may trigger me which can cause me to vanish suddenly, come off as rude or even snap. It's pretty hard to set off my triggers however, and I tend to deal with these emotions covertly instead of lashing out so you shouldn't have to worry too much.- I'm currently not medicated for any of my mental ailments - thus my symptoms may be a bit more prominent than usual (MINUS ANXIETY I am on anxiety meds at the moment but they aren't helping all that much so I'm thinking about changing the dosage)DNI- Anyone over 21; this only counts for personal relations though, you're allowed to ask me questions and the like. I tend to really struggle with interacting with adults/authority figures in general due to trauma reasons, but I will always do my best to remain respectful towards you regardless.- NSFW based accounts; this doesn't count folks who make NSFW art however, as long as it is properly tagged. This DNI rule only applies to those who make NSFW their whole profile or draw it very frequently.- If you are triggered by any of the content in my stories/worlds; this has actually happened to me before so PLEASE listen to this rule because I do not want to go through that experience again. I don't want to be blamed for triggering someone who didn't listen to my warnings.- If you're a very close associate of Uniquename/BrigetTheEevee; they are my ex-friend and ruined my mental health drastically (and it still affects me to this fucking day). If you're a regular associate of them, you are on very thin ice. DO NOT ASK ABOUT THEM OR ASSOCIATE THEM WITH ME; I don't want to share what they did unless you're a close associate of mine. DO NOT LET THEM TALK TO ME OR COME NEAR ME/MY CONTENT AGAIN.PLEASE DO NOT ASK TO BE MUTUALS IF I BARELY KNOW YOU, AND DO NOT ASK TO BE FRIENDS IF WE ARE NOT MUTUALS.
I have trust issues and struggle to consider others my 'friends' - I need to be fairly sure that our relationship will work before declaring this.If I have you blocked on anything or you have me blocked, I will block you on your other socials due to paranoia reasons. I am more likely to IP block you if you block me first, too.
I tend to block liberally - I try not to for petty reasons, though. I usually only block if I feel threatened, but there are a couple of other reasons as well.
Please do not block me unless you really feel the need to - I feel extremely paranoid, unsafe and anxious when it happens, which often leads for me to IP block the other. This doesn't mean you can't block me though; if you really need to, then go ahead - just keep this in mind. If it's a small/petty reason, it's much preferred you mute me instead though I won't stop you or witch-hunt you; rest assured, I will not send anyone or block evade to ask about it, I will leave you alone.I USE THE IP BLOCK FEATURE RATHER LIBERALLY ON TOYHOUSE; however, this is only for people I happen to have regular blocked first. If you see I have IP blocked you, but not regular blocked you on your main/alt accounts (or you never blocked me first) then the IP block was likely not targeted towards you.